four days I haven't heard anything from him. I worry about him even though he says we are just friends I REALLY REALLY like him! I don't know why but when I talk or hang out with him I forget everything for that time i'm with him. I find him so cute,smart, and funny. sigh we can't be anything more then friends and it hurts, I guess it is for the best that he is ignoring me.

How I feel right now.

Christmas Gifts and other purchases

I bought the Benefit Cheeky Sweet Spot

Anastasia Beverly Hills DipBrow Pomade Soft Brown 

benefit they're real! beyond mascara 

Lorac Mint edition eyeshadow palette 

The Strange Library by Haruki Murakami (This was an easy read and I really enjoyed it)

L.A. Girl Glazed lip paint peony

L.A. Girl Glazed lip paint seduce

L.A. Girl Glazed lip paint pin-up

L.A. Girl Glazed lip paint blushing 

L.A. Girl Glazed lip paint gleam ( seller sent the wrong color)

Lime crime Velvetines Liquid Matte Lipstick in wicked 

My sisters gifted me a really cute cherry blossom tea infuser cup and Chai love you a latte tumbler.

The Hello Kitty 40th Anniversary pop-up Party Palette 20 eyeshadows.

EOS feel good. Do good. set  

Bath & Body Works Pocket Bac no place like Gnome

Bath & Body Works Pocket Bac Ms. Owl Berry Swirl

I bought a couple of songs from JJ Lin new album Genesis. I have Brave New World on repeat.

I couldn't even focus at work today. I just kept  thinking of him for some reason. Nights are the hardest for me. I can't sleep and if I sleep I keep waking up. I drink But it makes me feel sick sometimes I take Sleeping pills But sometimes It doesnt  even work or I just keep waking up. sigh I don't know what to do with myself.

I'm so sad .......  I really messed things up with him. I really like him and I messed it up already......

I'm such a mess! I stopped talking to Gang because I realized he doesn't really give a shit about me. Also my ex has been emailing me trying to get back with me which I find really annoying! I been really down and been hanging out with my ex co-worker. He has been encouraging me to go to school which I am looking into already. I signed up for that Covered California so I get on some medication for my depression. I have been drinking almost everyday and been calling off from work. I have been running more and and eating less.

Empties #3

Bath & Body Works mini candle Sweet Cinnamon Pumpkin - I would repurchase it.

Air Wick National Park Limited Edition Candle Tropical Sunset and Air Wick National Park Limited Edition Candle Glacier Bay - I got these clearance for $1.50 each. I don't think I would repurchase if they are full price although they burned for a long time.

Dollar tree Make up Remover Facial Wipes - Horrible! I will not repurchase! Click Here For My Review

Zuum Cotton Square Pads - I bought these at a local dollar store. I would repurchase but Daiso is closer to my home.

Garnier Nutrisse Ultra Color B3 Golden Brown - This really lighten my dark hair and was true to color. I would repurchase later but I will try Palty hair dye next.

Revlon Beautiful Color Dark Ash blonde- I don't think I will repurchase it since my hair didn't seem to change shades.

Dickinson's Original Witch Hazel -  I really loved this! It took off any dirt my cleanser might have missed.

got2b Smoothing satin drops - O.M.G! This product never seem to end!!!  I would not repurchase because my hair was still a frizzy mess after.

Calgon Hot Date Body wash-  A clearance item I bought super cheap.  It did it's good cleaning but wasn't a fan of the scent. I wouldn't buy at full price.

John Frieda Frizz Ease Daily Nourishment Leave- In Spray - I bought this years ago ! I won't be repurchasing it since I want to try other leave- in conditioners.

Bath & Body Works Twilight Woods Body Lotion-  I wouldn't repurchase this scent.

Avon naturals Strawberry & guava shakes body lotion-  I didn't like the scent,

Mandom Cleansing Express Moist Cleansing Lotion- This is my 2nd bottle I have used and already on my 3rd. 

Ross, Victoria's Secret and Bath & Body Works

你好!  My Victoria's Secret order arrived on Friday night .I bought 3 perfumes since each was on sale for $25. This is my first time trying their perfumes.

SCANDALOUS

Bombshells In Bloom

Victoria

and Since I ordered $75 I received a free tote bag 

After work I went to Ross where I found this 2pc Betsey Johnson blue Bull dog makeup bags, cute Jessica Simpson underwear, Lush blue shirt , New Look black hoodie sweater, and owl Democracy the freedom jeaneration sweater .

Bath & Body works had the 8oz Body creams for $4 each so I picked up Winter Candy Apple, Twisted Peppermint, and  Frosted Wonderland. 

I also  picked up some holiday hand santizers.

who am I?

A while back my brother took one of those DNA ancestry and when he received the results I was surprise! we have the same parents 

so it's the same

12♥2♥14

It's finally raining in Los Angeles! It has been pouring down all day. I was a bit disappointed that the guy that I worked with yesterday wasn't there today he kept me entertained and was interesting. I don't know why but I feel more comfortable talking to guys ever since I was in college. is that weird?? I never noticed it until Gang pointed it out in Beijing. I feel I'm ugly so I hate going to certain places and stores and this is why I do 90% of my shopping online, I honestly hated going shopping in China because I'm fat and ugly. Gang had to force me into some stores.

Anyways, I was given more hours this week so I'm happy about that ^_^ I got Mooncake a new jacket and another bag of food. My co-worker gave me a ride today since of the rain. she is so nice! I got home my sister told me to go buy tortillas so my sneakers were soaking wet when I returned T_T Like 15 minutes later I was told my Aunt had died so now I am depressed... She is the only Aunt from my dads side that I knew.