1/5/15

I got some new stuff. I feel hungry right now but I don't want to eat...... I'm so weird but when I smell some certain thing I think of him..

Physicians Formula argan wear Ultra Norishing Argan Oil BB Cream SPF30 Light/Medium 

Physicians Formula Sexy Booster Cat eye Collection Liquid Eyeliner 24 hours Ultra Black

Physicians Formula Touch of Glow Foundation Nude Wear Light/Medium

Maybelline Color Molten by Eyestudio 301 Taupe Craze 

Smashbox on the rocks Photo Op eyeshadow Luxe Palette 28 eyeshadows

1/4/15

Just finished washing my face,  had a couple of drinks and feel shitty. I don't know what the hell I'm doing with my life.

I have to leave soon to go to my laser appt. that takes me almost 2 hours on the bus. I started thinking about him again last night and I'm feeling depressed. I think he was too good for me I'm not smart, pretty, or have anything special about myself so I should understand I never had a chance with him. Maybe I'll feel better once I get out of the house. The past two days I have been eating a lot but I went running yesterday.I realized why people own running shoes because the sneakers I use are so uncomfortable.  I haven't drank also in two days which was really hard! I think I was starting to get addicted to it. I better go finish getting ready.

1/3/15

The first shirt I bought was the waiting for the bus from teeturtle.com 

The second shirt is a Doctor Who shirt from TEEPUBLIC 

Third, from Walmart I bought a Marvel shirt and sweater.

Last, is a Doctor Who cardigan from Her Universe.

Front of Cardigan

back of the cardigan 

wet n wild Prep & Prime

I felt better today. I tried to focus on work more and not think of other things. I bought the new wet n wild  Prep & Prime set . It cost $4.99 and come with the wet n wild coverall primer and wet n wild coverall correcting palette.

Happy New Year! I woke up with a more clear mind today.I'm still really down but I see things a bit more clear. Went to the park but I only ran two laps because some idiots at the park were annoying me when I passed by them. I decided to walk to the market after because I was hungry and i'm sick of fast food. I bought to make wheat spaghetti with morning star fake ground beef , onion and mushrooms.  I'll probably eat that all week with a salad for dinner. My brother is suppose to arrive today from the hospital after having surgery. It has been helping me write my feelings on this blog! Well, that is so far my day....

Yesterday I bought the new wet n wild mascara Lash Out Loud MAX Volume. The packaging is really cute.  

Picked up a bottle of Jack Daniel's for myself also.lol

I have been listening to Jay Chou - Ming Ming Jiu  明明就 for some reason I can relate to the lyrics.

I'm blogging from my phone. He sent me a text after 5 days!!!!! He sent me "happy new year". I feel so stupid because I'm over here worried about him and missing him and He doesn't give a shit about it.  I need to start being a bitch!