I am have spent all month crying..... I feel trapped and stuck here and the one person I could talk to and made me feel a bit better doesn't love me anymore..... Last night I took a sleeping pill but as soon as I wake up I feel so sick and sad I want to take another again but I can't. I really feel so lonely and lost right now. I wish I could spend the whole day sleeping but life doesn't this way.... my anxiety has been pretty bad this month. I use to get  joy from shopping and not anymore. I don't get joy from anything I realized  this today. I have gained more weight  but there are some days I don't feel like eating anything at all and some days I want to eat everything. I feel completely lost and my dreams seem so impossible now. The person I had fallen in love changed over night . even though i never met him ( I know is retarded of me) we spent hours and hours chatting and on webcam. I felt comfortable talking to him but now I suddenly became no one to him. all I do is take care of my mom all day ,cook and clean and this has become so horrible for me. everyday it is worst . I want something different.

The Complete Sherlock Holmes (Barnes & Noble Leatherbound Classics)

Charles Dickens: Five Novels (Barnes & Noble Leatherbound Classics)

Jane Austen: Seven Novels (Barnes & Noble Leatherbound Classics)

Miss Peregrine's Home For Pecuiliar Children  by Ransom Riggs

After Dark 

by

Haruki Murakami,

Jay Rubin (Translator) (old library book)

 After the Quake 

by

Haruki Murakami,

Jay Rubin (Translator) (old library book)

Last week I took a walk to the library kind of near my house. It was a long walk!!! I am not sure why but all the libraries near my area suffer from a lack of books. I am serious! There are bookshelves half empty and looks so depressing T-T not sure what is going on. Anyways, I decided to finally get a Library card ^^ I decided to check out 4 books.  I hope I have the time to read them all.

Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins

Lola and the Boy Next Door by Stephanie Perkins

Handbook of Chinese Mythology by Lihul Yang and Deming An with Leslie Anderson Turner

Paper Towns by John Green 

I ordered 2 more Sentimental Circus memo pads and a mechanical pencil. I ordered the memo pads thinking they were the fold out ones I saw on a site a while back but I was wrong lol 

At Target I got a Boot No7 Time Resisting Day & Night Eye Care. I am in disparate need of a good eye cream. so I decide to try it out. 

I will soon start looking for a job. I discussed it with my mom and little sister. I need to work to buy my mom some stuff she needs and to save enough to a trip to China I want to take next year. My mom said I should go to China  so I feel better knowing I have her approval!

Barnes & Noble and Better World Books

Last week I placed an order from Barnes and Noble and Better world books. I bought 6 used books from  BWB site and 2 new books from Barnes and Noble. 

Barnes & Noble I ordered

 Beautiful Creatures by Kami Garcia & Margaret Stohl

Beautiful Darkness by Kami Garcia & Margaret Stohl

from Better World Books site I received 3 out of the 6 books so far ^^ I have received so far

The Driving Pool By Yoko Ogawa

Once Removed by Mako Yoshikawa

Nocturnes Five Stories of Music and NightFall by Kazuo Ishiguro

I have really fallen in love with the San-X Sentimental Circus so I got these cute Memo pads

Daiso

I just recently found out there is a Daiso near the mall I go to ! I went yesterday and bought some stationary,  cosmetics bags, a mirror, eyeshadow palette, a pen and a lot of snacks but I shared with my family so I didn't get to take a picture. I love this store only thing was it was very crowded and short on time so I didn't have the chance to look around for a long time.

I got the SKIN79 VIP GOLD COLLECTION Super Beblesh Balm BB Whitening UV Protecting SPF 25 PA++  wrinkle improvement. I tried it out yesterday and I  really like it !! I think it is better then the pink bottle one!!

These are some gift my sister bought me today from the book fair she went to. LOL I love the Miso Hungry print .

I went to Little Tokyo today. I went woke this morning with the mission to go there since my sister would be home. I have no idea what got into me! I guess I am sick of waiting for someone to go with me and instead I decided to go on my own! and you know what??? I really enjoyed it!!! I didn't feel rushed like I tend to feel when I go with people. I didn't want much since I was kind of broke. I got a Sentimental Circus clear folder with tabs, a fairy tale memo pad and B5 loose leaf paper for my binder I have been using for years. I want to go back sometime next month.

Sunday buys

Stantionary, coffee go candy, pair of socks, earphones  and highlighters

 Basic Korean A Grammar  and Workbook Andrew Sangpil Byon